About the Title ------ How to Say It - Neuer = Noise-se+er ------"A" as in ah, ge-dank-en-gang

What it means: - A New Way of Thinking, a New Path for my Thoughts .

Dienstag, März 28, 2006

What AM I doing?

I'm following the directions on starting a weblog (I really don't like the word "blog," so I'll stick with weblog), but I don't really know what I'm doing. Nor am I quite sure why. Although part of the "why" may be revealed in the title I chose. "Neuer Gedankengang" - a new train of thought, looking at things in a new way.

I am at a turning point - more a transition phase than a precise point in time, actually. Finally the thesis is finished, the diploma for the masters degree is in my hand. I am fortunate to have a full time job that is in the general field that both my bachelors and my masters degrees pointed to, but I am restless still.

I spent more than twenty years in work that was largely clerical (bookkeeping). While I don't have to worry about balancing reports or doing payroll in this job (thank goodness!), the work could in the next six months become largely clerical. But I still have questions to ask, things I want to learn, new tasks I want to accomplish.

A job (actually the money it brings in) is a necessity - so how can I find a way to continue to get paid for the research and the writing I love to do? And how can I do that work while maintaining my non-traditional, "the heck with the way it's always been done" attitude? That, I think, is what I'm trying to figure out.

I chose the color purple for this writing on purpose. I'm not a member of the red hat/purple dress group - they have made fashion out of what was intended to make the opposite point - to wear purple because it is what is not expected, to be free of doing what society around you expects of you and have the courage to do the unexpected. That is why I choose purple so much, to help me remember not to be bound by expectations. The challenge is to do that, and still to earn a living! :-)


posted by Shirley Schuette @ 10:44 PM